Letting Go – Day 22
We also had really good friends who had a business, and were going through a similar thing at the same time and we’d commiserate. One time N. was saying, ‘I was thinking of suicide,’ and I said, ‘yeah I know what you’re saying.’ The thing that we decided was that it’s an option, but it’s not an option, because we’ve got families. What are the kids going to do if we take ourselves out of the equation? It’s telling to have a conversation like that; you can’t just opt out, as easy as it might seem, or as preferable as it might seem at that time, it might remove pain but it’s not going to remove the pain for the rest of your family. What are your kids going to do? It’s a really interesting and strong push to keep getting through whatever you’re trying to get through.
Adrian had that conversation as well. Not that you’re going to suicide, but it does come up as an option. You go, I’ve had enough. You start to plan; what are the logistics? And then you go, well my family, it’s not really going to be a viable option for them.
JG: What do you think you let go through that experience?
C: [let go of material stuff] … being able to let go, this is going to be one of the poorer times – we could let go of that and get back on with other stuff … And you know their hell is that they’re stuck with each other. Okay, they have a lot of money, and they’re living in a big house with a marina, at the end of the day, they go home to each other, and that’s pretty nasty.
