A Beautiful Mind

So, I committed to 40 days of prayer/meditation/journaling and turning away from every appearance of struggle, lack and limitation-with the understanding that, in God or Universal Presence, there is no such thing as struggle, sickness, lack or hardship. There is only GOOD! I picked 40 days because it sounded Biblical enough to convince myself.

Every time I’d start to feel fear or doubt, I would consciously and resolutely turn away from it, saying to the illusion: “You are NOT real. You are an illusion trying to pull my attention away from that which IS real. You’re trying to keep me stuck in an old worn-out way of thinking. NO, you cannot have me!”

And then I would spend time in quiet prayer until I was re-centered.

It kind of reminds me of the movie “A Beautiful Mind,” where Russell Crowe was suffering from Schizophrenia. He had created, out of his illness, a best friend from college, and his best friend’s niece (who was a 7 year old girl) and a CIA agent that made him believe he was on a secret spy mission. This illusion wreaked absolute havoc in his life. He lost his job and almost lost his wife and child. But mostly, he lost his mind to a belief in something that was not real.

Sound familiar?

His turning point came when he almost drowned his own baby, because the illusions he suffered from directed him to do so. That was the last straw for his wife. She put the baby in the car and attempted to drive away. He jumped in front of the car when he realized that, “The little girl never gets any older. She’s been seven years old for 10 years.”