Lisa Garr: Becoming Aware

That was the moment that I realized that there was a connection between Jon and I. My whole life really changed when I started to flow outside of my body and when I started to go into this place of vast, pure, expanded – so much bigger than me – level of consciousness and I looked down at the little thing, that was my body, and I realized: “All this exists and I am trying to fit into that little thing?” and I realized that this was so much more vast and so much more amazing and alluring and I just kept going towards that place. Well, it wasn’t a place because that would have been too small. It was a state, a different dimension. It was so expansive, there are no words to explain it. That’s why I love the ocean and the sky, it was like that.

Anything that I could envision, or just feel, was here [moving her hands around her body], it was me, it was all, the same thing. I was not separate from anything. And then, I looked down and I could feel the EMT’s feelings, and their thoughts and their desires and their yearnings. I could also feel their purpose and their lack of purpose. Then I saw Jon come up next to my body and I saw this energy exchange between the two of us and it was a beautiful, opalescent energy. It was like a cord and it looked significant enough to distract me from what was going on up here [pointing with her hand up to the sky] and so I got back in there, in that container, the body [laughing], because I wanted to look at him and let him know “I am still here”. But when I got back in my body, it was so painful and the medics had put me on a stretcher and they were turning it to the side, because I was throwing up and I heard them say: “Turn her body so that she doesn’t choke on her own vomit.” That was something I didn’t want to be part of and so I left again because it was all too painful and the other state was much more peaceful – there was no pain, there was no drama, there were no thoughts, there was just being.